I am sorry. I suck at updating this thing. I figure if it's okay with you guys I will just accept the fact and move on.

So, here's what is going on in life with us right now:

Zen and I are getting over being sick right now, so life at the moment is relatively calm. I no longer work at the YWCA due to differences between myself and the shelter director. I volunteer part time at the Probation Department here and am getting really good experience. That happens Wednesday through Friday 8-5. Then Tuesday and Thursday nights I am going to school for nursing. (Iknow, I know. One would think I have enough school, but they'd be wrong.) It is beyond difficult to find a job here, and with nursing I could go anywhere, and make a decent living. So, that's the plan. And as soon as I am done with that, we are out of this town. I am expecting a year and a half to two years.

I am being considered for a position as an emergency services dispatcher, and have passed the first 2 rounds or eliminations for that. So that is something I am definitely praying for. A job is very necessary at this point, as Dad and welfare are entirely supporting our household (and yet we run a $900 deficit every month).

Ben hasn't seen Zen since the 14th of June, and he has agreed to sign over his parental rights. This leaves us the ability to move wherever we want, in addition, Zen can be adopted by another party. Also, aside from a minor incident, Zen is completely off of his asthma meds (and has been for 6 months) and has not had an attack, or any problems whatsoever.

Zen is doing well, and he takes his test to get into kindergarten some time in the next month. (Because the birthday cut-off is June 1). He is most excited to ride the school bus, which stops at his daycare (and I love that). His teacher thinks he is totally ready. He can count to 20, recognize all his letters (and most of their sounds), read and write his own name, recognize all his colors and shapes, and can follow directions on homework. Plus, his vocabulary is amazing. I always hear that from people. **It does kinda make me feel pretty old though**

Right now it is a big struggle for us financially, but God had managed to get us through is somehow. And I hear from some people that the economy is turning around. So i will just keep waiting on God's timing. This has definitely been a period to learn to trust, and to be humble. And those are things that are very hard for me to do.