...*sigh*, melt into puddle, wake up, repeat...

So I am now a cashier working full-time at the Wal*Mart out here in Pueblo West, and still going to school full-time (18 credits this summer) so forgive me if I cannot update this (or my myspace) as often. **I will be graduating next Spring.**

I couldn't enroll Zen in the McClelland school this year, because he is not yet potty trained. So I have to wait for my low-income daycare to get re-approved now that I am working. So he bounces around between members of my church and their teenage children while I am working or in class.

Yeah, I am pretty tired, and pretty stressed out, but I do feel like I am being a better parent to Zen. I know that I don't get to see him very much, but that is temporary, and I feel like I am setting myself up to be more present in the future. I am just trying to keep food in the house, and pull-ups on his butt. And that is about all I can do right now.

So, pray for me (and for him) this isn't really an easy patch for us. I love you all!!

What I have been working on all day...

Check out this video: Intro for Self Portrait Video



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and the reason I realize what a shortage of pictures I have of all of you...
(If you have access to a video capturing device and a way to send me the file. Please make a video of yourself, or your kids, finishing the sentence "I think you are..." about me, and you can be included in the final DVD and I will send you one as a thank you)

Favor!!

(Mom already did this, so she is excluded.) But could everyone send me pictures that you may have of me, you, and our family. I have very few pictures of all of us (none from the vacation in PA before Zen was born) and even fewer of my nieces and nephews. Email me anything you have. I want to be able to show Zen pictures of his family. 

Thank you!!

(Sara and Jessica: I know you guys have good ones, so you especially had better get on it)

Things to pray about...

I was told about another apartment complex out here in Pueblo West that has a sliding-scale rent, that is based on your income. I went and talked to them, and they said that they have 2 3-bedroom, 2-bath units for $407 a month (I am paying $495), and that I only pay gas and electric. Also there is a utility cap, so I will never pay more than $82 for both. (I pay $102/mo for jst my electric here) They have w/d hookups, and new dishwashers in every unit. (I pay $60/mo to do it all at the laundromat, and I hate having to do all the dishes by hand). And they are larger, have storage areas, a playground on site, and just are nicer in general. The management seems very nice, interested, and helpful. It just seems like I would be much better off. Zen would have a place to run around, I would have a private patio for our garden. And we would have more space. However, my lease is not up until November 30th. So I am asking for prayers that God give me some clarity with regard to what he wants me to do. I need to decide whether to break my lease here (which I don't like the idea of doing, because it is largely inconsiderate) and move into the others, or to serve out the term of my lease and see if they have any availabilities at that point. Any Bible verses that apply are more than welcome.

Prayers of praise and thanks for my new car. I got a good deal on a Mercury Villager, with a warranty, and less mileage than my PT Cruiser. And it is definitely an answer to prayer. I love it, and will get pctures up soon.

Prayers for Sara's health, and Jessica's religous issues.

Prayers for whatever is supposed to happen with this farm to happen according to God's time. And for God to grant me the serenity to accept it as it comes and not to try to push things faster than they are supposed to go.

Zen's asthma has been acting up again, and he was diagnosed with pneumonia a few days ago, so please pray for a resolution to his health issues, or for a better treatment plan to keep him from having to be constantly hospitalized.